I don’t think so, I told him, because I realize now that we brought out the worst in each other.  I was the worst I’ve ever been and he couldn’t do any better.  It was a long goodbye, and I tried my best to make things better, but in the end I didn’t see another way.

Said without defensiveness, because, finally, I understand that we can only proceed with good faith.  I’m not playing games or trying to win contests, I am in this to be interactive, to create things with people who want to play.   Whatever the world may say about that is really not my concern any more.  Trying to play with unhappy critics is not fun.  I need to play with people who just love to play.

My goal is to be present, direct, and as good as I can be.  People I have to be polite around I’ll be polite around until I can get away from them.  People I can be creative with are the ones I’m looking for now, not people who test my abilities as an improvisational actor by insisting I pretend that a bowl of moldering snot is actually a tasty dip.