I had a rock vamp I used to play all the time, very groovy little four chord thing that fit together nicely. One day, years ago, playing an old friend’s beautiful old semi-hollow body electric guitar (a delightfully resonant Gibson ES-335) later sadistically destroyed by a mentally ill musician in a fit of enraged mania, I improvised the following to those chords:
just what I said
when you had your gun
pointed at my head,
I didn’t mean to kill you but…
You should have stayed
home in bed
with a comfy pillow
under your head
I didn’t want to kill you but…
dah dah dah dah dah dah dah
Then I took a heroic guitar solo as the mentally ill keyboard player beamed at my maliciously macho little lyrical invention, my rock and roll posturing. I don’t recall how much later it was that he took a file to the beautiful guitar, breaking the F-holes and prying out the humbucker pickups, gouging and mutilating the lovely red-lacquered body beyond recognition, leaving the martyred, irreparably destroyed vintage guitar floating in a dirty bathtub full of sudsy water, the greasy hair from his half-shaved head as the cherry on top. He wound up back in the laughing academy after that little caper, though it took a village to get him there.
The thing is, once you hold a gun to someone’s head, trust is usually compromised. I eventually had to take a dirty stake and hammer it through the heart of this highly intelligent, provocatively mirthful idiot. I reapply the stake as needed, by posting things like this, periodically, prophylactically, to make sure he doesn’t stagger out of his fucking grave imagining that we can be friends again.
So it is, and so it must be, with people who unthinkingly treat others solely as vehicles to take them where they demand to be taken. People who fear they are weak will often take a friend’s perceived strength for granted, until that strength is exhausted. You may not have noticed, friend, but I ain’t no horse. While I can pick you up, if needed, I can also throw you down. Neither of those things makes me a horse.
“What is this about holding a gun to somebody’s head?” a concerned voice asks, seeking clarification about this disturbing metaphor. Hoping it’s a metaphor.
It’s a metaphor, it’s a metaphor. Picture this: you create an emotional emergency, emergency, emergency! It must be dealt with immediately, now, now, now! Ah, never mind. It wearieth me too much. For the anxiety riddled, it is rare for them to instantly get the joke, unless it comes at the rare moment when their native anxiety recedes enough to let humor in. Irony is generally wasted on this type. Nuff said.