There are small kindnesses, everywhere, that are very easy to do and yet are beyond us. We may even see them laid out for us, ready to be picked up and given like the precious gifts they are, but not do them. After all, our day may have sucked with sharp teeth and nobody did any small kindnesses for us. We may even be dealing with monsters all day long.
The person you love the best may say “yeah, you’re real gentle,” letting the sarcasm ring without a hint of poetry. The thought that she says this because she thinks you should have been kinder to her, no matter how else you’ve tried to be gentle, may make you feel like snarling. You don’t snarl, but that look on your face, as you stare at the road ahead, will do nicely.
“See?” she will think to herself, and feel absolutely just to think this. She will even be right to feel that way, though it will burn you in that moment.
Any of a dozen small kindnesses you could have done earlier could have softened it, even a second or third if the first wasn’t appreciated. Gentleness must be endless, or it is not really gentleness.
Fucking hard, though. I know.